I want to tell you the story of my way to Islam,.....
I have always been searching, since I was a small girl..... but I didn't know what for!.... I have always believed in God, although I grew up in an incredulous parental home. my parents were Christians - if only by name, and to belong.
At the age of 10 I panicked and questioned fear over death... the thoughts of ending, zero beloningness was a torment and driving me crazy - where and what happens to life after death??? was my persistance to search further
I found consolation and relief in the religious lessons, and thus originated my deep faith in God,....
My first thought about Islam wasn't good,..but also not bad,....because I didn't know a lot about this...I only knew that Islam accept Jesus...I paid no attention to media, the negative headlines and propaganda, as for example the book "Not without my daughter" in such a way I was always a seriously person, who have tried to get the bottom of,...
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I was a Christian..., however not properly. I could not believe, that Jesus has died for us to take away our sins . I always thought ,that I am responsible for my sins by myself...I made an in-firm training in a strictly Catholic house...
with the result which I, as soon as I was 18 years old , I have stomped out from the church , because I did not manage with this Catholic apprenticeship, with the pope,...so I started to study my religion properly. and discovered a lot of truth., however, the thing with God's son I could never accept.....
Also I started to study other religions., for example, Buddhism. Hinduism, .. in continual search to find peace and thruth within a religious sector
thus I took out the good, true things and cooked up my own patchwork- religion ,...hihiii:))
Then I got to know my husband, he is a Muslim. Alhamdulillah! We talked a lot about Islam and religion, and I ascertained that our opinions were similar
A lot of things wasn't really new for me... I already knew it from the other religions.
But something came to me very strange and has also made some fear.........
I always heard hell and paradise... haram and halal.... so many laws.......,...too many laws....
I am an emotional person. . my heart could not feel it....it didn't touched me,....
Then I have heard you with your beautiful, emotional voice.....and your wonderful music,..from your heart..!))!! MashaAllah!!
You have impressed me with your devotion to Islam very much. I could feel your deep love to Allah and to the prophet. (sas)... this has touched me sooooo much, since the first moments till now..!!)))...It has opened the door to my internal way,...my way to Allah !!! Thank you soooo much, my dearest brother!! Alhamdulillah!!.....Jasaku
And there were other brothers and sisters who showed me the spiritual side of Islam. I read literature.... my heart has opened and I could understand everything. also the jurisprudence.....
I discovered the miracles of the holy Quran, the science in it... this perfect entity... it wasnt apparent in any other religion ....
Thus I became a Muslim, first in my heart.. and 4 years ago official, Alhamdulillah:))!!..It was like "coming home"...finally. after a long search...it was such a unbelievable feeling,...coming home to God..to Allah!!! its been a Long time I have wondered around and around and have searched the sense of my life.
.... now I have found: the love to God, the way to Him and the sense of my life: to serve... to him so well as I am able, and to improve my Iman!! Allahu akbar!! Everything in the life has his sense and thus also my long way...
Therefore, I love your song "You came to me" soooo much.mashaAllah:))!! It reminds me of my own way,.......
My mother has accepted this immediately... she has a big heart Alhamdulillah. My father has never said something about it...
Many so-called friends have withdrawn, but I have won many new friends,..real friends
I do not know whether I am a good Muslim, I do the best, iA Practising is very difficult for me ....
My dear brother, please make Du 'a for me,.. which I become strong.....
Wish the best 4 you and your family, inshaAllah!
I will remember you in my prayers,..!
Send my love,...to you and your wife and family!!
I hope so much you are well!! InshaAllah!!
Barak Allahu fik!!
Assalamu alaikum rahmatullah wa barakatu!!
Silvie